mama;

how is it possible;

to not be able to communicate properly with someone, yet care about them so much?

to not have much to talk about, yet enjoy spending time together?


seeing her lying there so fragile and worn out, really broke my heart.

all the times she took care of me when i was younger and my mum was busy. or how she always cooked my favourite dishes when i visited. seemed quite so long ago.


every night i pray you'll get better. dear God, please let her get better.

so that i can spend more time with her. i really should spent more time with her.


slow down
you're getting a little too quick
for me to follow
slow down
you're getting away from me
and i dont know how
to slow you down.


please get better, grandma. i love you.